Changes and uncertainty

It has been sometime since I last blogged. Often, there are so many things and changes happening to our lives that it is timely to take time off to reflect on all these changes and often I wonder, " God, what are you trying to teach me from all these? I am so lost!" Well, often this is one of the rhetorical questions that I often ask and I know the answer may or may not be found. But, nevertheless, typing down all these does enable me to offload all the emotions and thoughts that run through my mind each day. Besides, going to God in prayer each day, sharing with a confidante or a close friend is what I hope to do.
Recently, some issues at work cause me to ponder if after staying in this job for four years plus whether I should change and do something else. Boredom sets in, frustrations of the system and the people disheartens me a lot. I remember for a couple of nights in February and March, I woke up in the wee hours of the morning wondering what have I not done. Is that a sign of stress? or? How I wish I could just call up someone whenver I feel that I need someone to talk to? Only then that I realise and truly appreciate Jesus as being my best friend and saviour.
I know that without God's grace and strength, I would not be able to manage the many challenges and stress of each day.
Being an organized person, I don't quite like changes and often like to plan and be aware of what's happening. So, when I am not in control of this, I get frustrated and lost. Probably, it is the same in my career and my personal walk with God and personal life.
I pray that through all these changes and uncertainty, my walk with God will be strengthened and I will grow to trust God more in faith despite the uncertainty. I know that the struggle will not end but I know that through this struggle, my character is being moulded to be who God wants me to be. These verses come to my mind: Trust in the Lord with all your heart. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. ( Proverbs 3:5-6) May this be a timely reminder for me to learn to trust in the Lord.