Tired

Thank God for giving me the grace to survive the past 3 weeks since the term started. There are just so many things to do and sometimes it really gets so overwhelming and I really dislike when I see that my table at home and in school is in such a mess. Oh how i envy my colleagues who have such a tidy workstation. It really goes to show how organised they are. Quite a number of my colleagues including myself is affected by the flu bug that is around. Well, I do hope the weekend will allow me to recover soon before Chinese New Year is round the corner soon. Well, I have mixed feelings about celebrating the new year. On one hand, it is good as get to have a few days break from work and receiving red packets.However, besides meeting up with my relatives and friends, sometimes I do get unnecessary pressure from them when they jokingly ask when will be my turn to give 'hongbaos". Well, I do hope i can jokingly also brush that topic aside and not let it affect me. Quite a number of my colleagues are down with the flu bug and I also have a bad throat after raising my voice. I do hope i can recover quickly, replenish my energy over the next two days in the weekend.

Good gifts and Love

These few verses from Matthew 7:9-11 ministered to me a lot during the past few days. "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
Although I have read these verses many times before but each time when I read these verses, the Holy Spirit never fails to impress upon my heart what the Lord wants to speak to me. As I endeavour to know God better in this spiritual pligrimage, I believe God wants me to learn to know Him better as a loving Father, and that He wants me to learn to ask for what is good for me, and then He grants it. Each time when I come to the Father and seek Him in my prayers, I am sure the Lord knows even what I want to ask of Him. So even when I earnestly await for Him to answer my prayers, I am learning to patiently wait and seek His Will for every aspect of my life. After being in the workforce for a few years, there are times when I find that I rely on my own strength instead of His and then I realise that I am not enjoying that abundant life that He wants me to lead. Even as I step into the third week of the year, it is my prayer that I will learn to love Him more each day and that He will teach me what it means to seek the Giver instead of the gifts.
Recently, the news of a friend who decided to call it a day with her boyfriend of quite a number of years. I was shocked initially because I thought they were such a loving couple. But then again, there are many surprises we meet in life. And I think for the couple, probably if the girl experiences God herself, she might be able to love the guy with God's love. Love is such an amazing emotion. It can cause people to do things that they will never imagine themselves doing. And this brings me back to the greatest love of God - "God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son..." Indeed, can any human love be compared to this great love? And this helps me to focus again on His love when I feel down. Being a melancholic person, I tend to allow negative thoughts to affect me when things do not seem to go my way or when people disappoint me or let me down. But, when I think about His great love that He died for my sins, my focus is back again.
May I continue to experience His love more and more each day and in turn share this love to the people around me who are lost without His love. Praise God!